Thursday, May 18, 2017

Limited energy

I'm not at the top of my game.

Mind you, I have a ton to be thankful for.  My son-in-law completed his Doctor of Physical Therapy this spring,

and my daughter-in-law completed her Doctor of Jurisprudence.

Shawn and I were able to attend both celebrations, and even work in a trip north through Minnesota and Wisconsin, to see many family members, in-between.  God sustained me miraculously, and I felt almost as though I didn't have lupus.

Until I got home.

Now my body is going down, and when this happens, the mind often goes with it, to depression, despair, worry, what-have-you.

Have you ever felt too tired to breathe?

Augh.  I want so badly to do something that matters, for my life to count for something, for God to be able someday to say, "Well done, good and faithful servant."  But I can barely get myself a drink of water.

Tomorrow maybe I will feel better.

I think I may miss my goal of 6 blog posts this month.

Two scriptures God gave me today:

Isaiah 44:20-22

Acts 2:38-39

I am thankful for my home.
I am thankful for my bed.
I am thankful for the delight my flowers bring me when they bloom in the garden.
I am thankful for my husband who works and encourages me to rest.
I am thankful that I have seen every one of my children, in person, over the past month.
I am thankful for safe travel.
I am thankful for the audiobook we listened to on our last trip: Miracles by Eric Metaxas.
I am thankful for a sovereign, loving God who gave His life to redeem me for all eternity.
I am thankful that it doesn't depend on me, or my energy level, but on God and His perfect power.
I am thankful for hope, which comes from God, who never fails to accomplish His purposes.


Hope T. said...

Congratulations to the graduates! Graduations are my favorite thing about this time of year. It's wonderful that you were able to attend both.

Ruthie said...

Thank you. It was indeed a wonderful thing.