Limited energy

I'm not at the top of my game.

Mind you, I have a ton to be thankful for.  My son-in-law completed his Doctor of Physical Therapy this spring,

and my daughter-in-law completed her Doctor of Jurisprudence.

Shawn and I were able to attend both celebrations, and even work in a trip north through Minnesota and Wisconsin, to see many family members, in-between.  God sustained me miraculously, and I felt almost as though I didn't have lupus.

Until I got home.

Now my body is going down, and when this happens, the mind often goes with it, to depression, despair, worry, what-have-you.

Have you ever felt too tired to breathe?

Augh.  I want so badly to do something that matters, for my life to count for something, for God to be able someday to say, "Well done, good and faithful servant."  But I can barely get myself a drink of water.

Tomorrow maybe I will feel better.

I think I may miss my goal of 6 blog posts this month.

Two scriptures God gave me today:

Isaiah 44:20-22

Acts 2:38-39

I am thankful for my home.
I am thankful for my bed.
I am thankful for the delight my flowers bring me when they bloom in the garden.
I am thankful for my husband who works and encourages me to rest.
I am thankful that I have seen every one of my children, in person, over the past month.
I am thankful for safe travel.
I am thankful for the audiobook we listened to on our last trip: Miracles by Eric Metaxas.
I am thankful for a sovereign, loving God who gave His life to redeem me for all eternity.
I am thankful that it doesn't depend on me, or my energy level, but on God and His perfect power.
I am thankful for hope, which comes from God, who never fails to accomplish His purposes.